Last week sucked, not going to lie. There were a lot of hard hits that made my week roll farther and farther downhill. And it wasn't just me. It felt like a lot of my friends went through a hard week too. Thankfully, there were some highs to my week, which I was extremely grateful for. I learned a few lessons in the last week. I guess a lot of things can happen in 7 days.
I learned a little something about feelings last week. I remember writing in my journal a long, long time ago that I really wanted to fall in love one day. And I wanted to get my heart broken too. Now, who in their right mind would want to feel heartbreak? I guess it's just me, but I think it's a necessary part of life. No one's ever going to be able to go through their entire life without getting their heart broken at least once. I wanted to know what that felt like, no matter how much it hurt. And I did get to feel that in the last seven days. And I underestimated how much it would hurt. And after that, the mixture of feelings is something that can't be made up. It's so complex. Being heartbroken while trying to be okay in front of others and the frustration of not knowing what to do with yourself because your feelings are tiring you out and making you confused and wanting to give in to the sadness but not wanting to at the same time which leads to more frustration and wishing things had never happened so everything could go back to the way it was and then just being angry because this whole situation feels stupid now. It's extremely puzzling, especially if you're the one who's going through it. Everyone deals with heartbreak differently, so this is either relatable or not relatable depending on who you are. But maybe it is, hopefully it is. Because even though it's only been a week, I've come out of it stronger. The lesson I learned is that even though it hurts, it's going to be okay. I stumbled on the quote above and as painful as it is to hear at the moment, it relates to my situation personally and I know that it's the truth. Things won't be okay overnight; I'm completely sure there's still more ups and downs to come, but I realized I can do this.
How did I come to the conclusion that I can do this? Through the support of my friends. Don't underestimate the power of friends. Friends come and go, but there are some that will stay in your life, and if you're lucky enough, they will become your best, closest friends that you can depend on for a long time. I'm lucky that there are certain people on my life that I can depend on and trust right now. They cheered me up this week and I'm so thankful for that. True friends will be there for you during the highs and the lows. They'll let you talk for as long as you want about whatever you want. They'll figure things out before you even tell them what's going on. They'll do whatever it takes to cheer you up. They'll put a smile on your face and make you laugh even when you feel like crap. They'll stay up all night to talk to you. Distance means nothing. And it goes on and on. It really helps to have friends, so make sure to think about each of your friends and know what they mean to you. And know which ones are true friends and which ones are just temporary acquaintances and then go from there.
The last lesson I learned this week was that it's not always a big event that makes memorable and valuable. Sure, there are the important events in life, like a proposal, a wedding, a special birthday party, Christmas, etc., but it's the smaller moments that make you appreciate and enjoy life even more. Having a dance party while music is blasting in the car, singing karaoke at 12am, randomly going out with friends without knowing what's going to happen, chilling until 3am. Like that one saying goes, "No one remembers the nights where you got plenty of sleep." Even though there are times where all you want to do is curl up in a ball, cry, punch something, or other things, there are so many other things that make life worth it, and it doesn't take much to find that worth.
Take a chance. Go somewhere new. Do something different. It's going to be okay.